So I think I figured it out,
In this city,
With so much rain,
So much torrential downpour,
The people are afraid to create another drop.
The people are afraid to cry.

I'm ready for sunshine.

Ruptured Box Spring- by: Unknown Forgotten

"Hey, wake up. You were losing your mind.
Get up, get up. You were probably just having a bad dream.
Hey, come one now. Both of you.
C'mon, seriously, up and at 'em.
You were calling out something, I think it was a name.
But I couldn't tell what you were saying."
--
"It was like that time. That moment. Back then.
Way back then. I don't know why I go back then.
But I do, I do. When first, I couldn't sleep.
Then I submerged into crazy dreams.
And woke up. I woke up in my own home,
But still I didn't know where I was.
And at 4:30am I had to step outside.
That air was, it was the sweetest breathe of life I have ever had,
Honest to God."
--
To taste the air
To defeat the dreams
In realms which walking human souls can not reveal
So we slumber nightly, lie drunken or somber
All to sow in the reality we can not ponder
The fiction ruptures to life
In nightmares or pleasure we still revel in both
I've not heard a nightmare that has been forgotten
Whilst many real bad memories are quickly dropped
And the pleasure and the passion
That flows from the heart unstopped in a dream of emotions
Some hold these visions, make them closer than fact
And with these dreamers we all sit waiting for the next night
To sail forth into the lands on which we'll never set foot

You Know the Way- by: unknown forgotten

And then I saw the end
It was a flood of rolling fire
Over the houses, and through the streets like water
The flaming river splashed over the earth consuming all in it's path
And then, moments later...
We were somewhere not too distant holding each other tight
Over your shoulder I watched the outside ignite
As the fire flowed forth and so it seemed,
It seeped ever so slowly through the windows and beneath the doors
In the foreground the curtains slowly withered up
In the background I saw a knight on a black horse being swallowed up by the twisting flames
Being pierced by the joust of knight on a white horse consumed in the infernal heat
Both of their armor was charred black, and their horses were ablaze
Then the windows and walls were black with soot
Something exploded behind my back and feathers came into my sight
I turned, so see a pitchfork protruding from the hardwood floor
And an angel of sorts lying limp
When I embraced to draw you near you had vanished
And then seconds later
Everything disappeared

Memories of the Way That it Was- by: unknown forgotten

Walking down the federal run road
Drunken and glad
Peering through the devilish fog
I looked into the the eyes of the devil
Run left, run right, there is no escape
Hovering from above

The two eyes of the wicked one
They stare down green
And wait, and wait
They stare down red
Such evil piercing my soul
And it makes me cry out:
"From whence have I come,
From where do I go?"

And every single second that escapes my breath
From every single second that dodges my bite
Bears down with full force and gnaws on my life

And to the evil eyes
Viewing through the pourous fog
I commend my sight

Because It's There- II- by: unknown forgotten

In regards to everyone you don't know
They're the ones who will help me save all our souls
The lessons that so desperately need be learned;
The knowledge of such delicate formulas is held inside them
Soon, it will all be over with good luck
Because otherwise my words will never stop stuttering
Because otherwise I'll never outrun the jitterbug

I live because I am.
I have never figured out why I care to such precise extremity's.

Archive Masters- by: Unknown Forgotten

This is about the story of the Ghost, the Sun, the Unknown, the Forgotten, the Silent, the Enchanted, the Downlookers, the Onlookers, and the Lot of Losts
I held them all close to my heart
I reveled in their beauty
Each contributing such a necessary part
And now and only now do I realize
That they've molded me into what I have become
All their parts are virtually interchangeable
All so drastic and full of static
It's a shame, I've fought so hard so it woud not be dramatic

The Ghost taught me lessons I'll never forget
The Ghost still haunts me still and forever will
The Sun burned holes in my eyes and made me blind
The Sun gave me sight and stood me staring into the light
The Unknown reveled in self pity
The Unknown always knew who it was
The Forgotten never remembered who it was
The Forgotten understood that exemption made bliss
The Silent never told me anything ever
The Silent stood there and kept quiet to save its ass
The Enchanted gave me a reason to thrive
The Enchanted was a muse but has never broken the ice
The Downlookers looked down
The Downlookers walked and spreaded themselves over the earth
The Onlookers stood by only wanting to be bystanders
The Onlookers murmered and held hands with Downlookers
The Lot of Losts drowned in the ocean
The Lot of Losts held all the secrets and like sunken treasure will never be recovered

All so drastic and full of static
It's a shame, I've fought so hard so it woud not be dramatic
I could have learned something

The First Car Ever- by: unknown forgotten

I was driving the first car ever
I was driving it real fast
She said "Slow down or we'll break records
Records that have never been made."
That was the last straw
So I dropped her off in New York and drove back home even faster
I saw you on the side of the street here over yonder
Call it the West Coast of the continent
"Looking good as ever," I said joyfully
And you were
Your smile was huge and you jumped in the passanger seat
We cruised the hillsides and valleys
Along the coast and forded rivers
"Let's make an agreement, a mutual agreement, shall we?" I said
We were rolling through the forest
Evergreens were moving by in all directions
"Let's just stay in this car, the first car ever, you and I, together."
You nodded and smiled again
The sun shined through the branches and a bald eagle hovered even higher
I turned on the radio and they played all our requests
Such a good evening in the first car ever made
We never even had to stop for gas

Because It's There- by: unknown forgotten

I have things to say that don't involve anyone I know
But it's a necessary mission to help me erase
All the things that haunt my mind
And soon, or so I hope, it will all be over with good luck
Because otherwise my hands will never stop shaking
Because otherwise I'll never outrun the jitterbug

When the Buildings I'm In Crumble- by: unknown forgotten

I have such great devotion
I have nowhere to devote it
I could be King Kong
Or Superman
But I will not be susceptible to destruction
Along time ago I chose to not to allow you to be a victim
I chose not to crush the world, though I could have
Tell me you wouldn’t have wished otherwise
You can't, you won't, you don't know how

I have such great devotion
But I may have been wrong
Now you take sides with Godzilla
And walk holding the Joker's arm
I chose to become a citizen for your better good
But never did I think you would stand on the enemy's side

I have such great devotion
Now I am King Kong gone wild
And transformed into Bizarro Superman or some other super villain
Who falls to his death after a battle trivialized
He who is totally destroyed regardless of the circumstances
Tell me you would have wished otherwise

The Arbiter- by: unknown forgotten

He was deciding if he should wait for something bad to happen
Or if he should go ahead and make something bad happen to himself

He could make you run home crying
Or he can bite his own tongue right off
Clench his jaw harder and listen to his teeth crack
And sit back once again, blood pressure rising
Every muscle in his body throbbing and pulsing
Wanting to thrust forward to stop you from falling into another trap
Or he could make you cry for a reason

He was deciding if he should remain arbitrary
Of if he should go ahead and make something happen
No matter if it's good or bad




The Arbiter lay eyes open for hours
He was deciding if the means even lead to the proper end
Or if the end was worth the hellstorm that the means could bring in between

And if he had an umbrella that would keep him free from raining fire

The problem is you would consume the world if you could
Lay waste to all the pathetic souls this world holds
You would reach out and turn the oceans red
And my problem is that's what I love about you

The Ending Makes You Cry- by: unknown forgotten

If you think hard enough
You know what I'll have to say
And if you react strong enough
Stronger than I
Then I will be slain at the swipe of your claws

In the forest of blood
Can I look you in the face?
Where the trees cry for mercy
And the moon shudders at the thought
Of all the destruction that is about to be brought

I transform into a beast that is vicious and hard to beat
But you mutate into something that is unstoppable at best
You'd devour yourself if you could
But alas you feed on the the flesh of those that come close
Razor claws on your fingers
Jagged sharp teeth slimy with salivation
Protruding from your elongated jaw

If you think hard enough
You know what I'll have to say
And if you react strong enough
Stronger than I
Then I will be slain at the swipe of your claws

But if you think hard enough
You will know what I'll have to say
And if you react strong enough and dearly
You'll see there is nothing to defeat
You'll realize I won't put up a fight
And there you decide if I will be slain innocently
And there on that mark
You will or will not be held blameless

Syndication- by: unknown forgotten

It's like that feeling you get when you trip and fall on a stake
When you trip and fall on a sharp stake that pierces your rib cage
That pierces your rib cage and shreds your heart
And shreds your heart and you hang there bleeding to death
Bleeding to death and thinking about how you felt something before you fell
Before you fell you felt hands on your back
On your back you felt hands shoving you forward onto the stake
Onto the stake you fell and realized it's like that feeling
It's like that feeling you get when you trip and fall on a stake

Rerun- by: unknown forgotten

Please don't do this to me
Not again
Otherwise you will no longer be held blameless
I've seen this one twice before
This is the one where you push me onto a stake

[Obligatory Valentines Hate]

We're the Embittered/(ex-)Lovers- by: unknown forgotten

Twas a shiny raining day
Twisting clouds held in the cold
They held it down low, low, low.....


The day of broken hearted lovers
They swirl down together in a mass of loneliness
Clawing at their rib cages all over the world
Tearing open their flesh to give their heart to someone else
Well let me be the first one to say
Thank you St. Valentine
May you burn in hell

Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
But you, St. Valentine
Make it so much worse
So much harder
You make us realize once again
That we have no one that loves us
We live alone in our cold rooms
Sucking on each and every last breath
In the dark with the lights off
Crying ourselves to sleep
So fuck you St. Valentine
May you burn in hell

This sullen day of lonely lovers
So much love to give with nowhere to go
We've got nobody to lean on
When we're not strong
Our hearts pump when we meet eyes from across the room
The blood pulses through our minds and makes us weak
And our hearts break easier every time we go home alone
We get so lonely, we could die
So FUCK YOU St. Valentine
May you burn in hell

Gifts and affection spread across the land
The population wreaks of cuddling and kisses
And sex and another corporate christmas
The day of love
What the fuck does it mean?
Well fuck you St. Valentine

I receive no love, and I've no love to give
I stare motionless out the window at the world
There's no red paper hearts on the glass
There's no Valentines card in my hand
There's no lover waiting in the other room
There's no flowers or candy or affection
There's no love inside this cold heart
It all froze into bitterness and long nights of painful contemplation
Well, St. Valentine, let me be the first to say,
But definitely not the last
Fuck you, and fuck valentines day
May you burn in hell you son of a bitch



[2/14/2004]

WAKE UP!

You know life is all about the soul.
You know that, but I fear you and I may have forgotten.

The choice is do I sleep and eat or cheat.
Or do I eat and cheat or sleep
And cheat and sleep or eat
Or eat or sleep or cheat

To Soon To Be: Forgotten Unknown- by: Unknown Forgotten

I'm trying my hardest to not say anything relevant
I'm trying my hardest to hide face and face away
Soon enough, if it already hasn't happened
I'll be gone before your eyes
And then you won't have to even consider me
You won't even have to remember me again
I'll sink into a hole I'll find somehow
And the world will turn again and the cosmos will align
Just like we've all been waiting for
Only then can mankind accomplish what it was meant to be
Only then, when I bow out and step aside

I know this isn't what you say you wanted
But I've heard this is what the earth cries for

The Tease of Disbelief in TechniColor- by: unknown forgotten

Here I go
There I go
Here I am

Here I am in my blessed sleep
I'm sleeping right now
I ask dearly,
What happened to my blessed sleep?
With dreams that would put me at ease?

I'm dreaming stories and fiction
I'm dreaming disbelief
I buried two men in the stairs at the airport
I hid out in a house I've never been in
I went to work and told everyone exactly what I think of them
I drive cars I don't own or know
I meet people that scare me
And I scare people I don't know

I awake in the early morning
Here I am
I am here
Here I go again
There I go
Faster than before
Here I am sleeping
There I go
Here I was

Don't shake me
Don't turn the other way
Though I only realize what I'm saying when you talk over me
I ran and fell and slid sideways for miles and miles
I told the police lies and ran fast as ever
I only understand what I'm saying when you look away
I fell in quicksand and a dragon ate me
I held you and we were together and I don't know you
Sweat beads roll over my skin as I jump and fly away as hard as I can

I go fast
There I went
Here I was
There I am
Here I'm gone

I'm Wading in the Salten Sea Wherever That May Be- by: unknown forgotten

You study me
You and your eyes feel free, honestly
Yet I can't decipher you
I can take your heat
Trust me

Everyone under estimates me
But I've never failed under pressure
I've never bowed down

In fact
Without the down pressure
I can hardly react
I've been so benign that I'm ready to explode
I've been so benign
I gave myself a simple cancer that is inconsequential
And can still be cured

What's left after that's all gone
I hope to never learn

However I have goten here
I have plans to be with you

The lost trade their bibles for whiskey sweet fire
And fire, recieve my soul

Failure is consent for self-destruction
Then I can try again

The Answer- by: unknown forgotten

What could I say to persuade you?
What could I say that you would believe?
If I knew you were ready I'd tell you more than you wish to know
If I knew, I would fight for your life and never stray

This Ghost- by: unknown forgotten

This ghost was your ghost
Confined within my dreams
This ghost held my arm
And we stood before them
This ghost was everything I could ever dream of
This ghost had your face and your name
This ghost startled me when I awoke
For this ghost was no longer there
As in my sleep this ghost was huddled by my side
The real world could not compare
This ghost I held close
This ghost I kissed and gave all my love
This ghost I loved until I died
Into my dream world this ghost was my life
I died with this ghost and this ghost was mine

This ghost is not yet real
This ghost has never died
This ghost still has a life
This ghost is not mine

Good Enough- by: unknown forgotten

I'm working my way into the new millennium
It's alright at first
Then it gets worse

But I'm gonna be alright
The shakes are almost gone
And the sun is staying up later

I can't see the future
But I can guess a little bit ahead
I say it's going to be alright

The world always spins
It seems always bad
And it always spins back around to alright and good enough

They didn't see my tail light
I'm dead

The Devil's Junction- by: unknown forgotten

What to do?
There's a devil's pitchfork in the road
Which way to go?
4 roads lie ahead

Necessity. Is it necessary?
Socialization. Something I should learn.
Point of interest. I don't know where I'm going.
Self-destruction. So easy to corrupt.

I can defy all laws of nature
I can hug the walls
I can go this way but I don't know where it ends
I can pass out on the floor and wake up dead

They're like friends that do their best
People I don't know but should care
This way is rocky, I can bite my tongue
Take no roads, build my own city right here

Bothersome
Seperatists
Uncharted
Selfish

Status: Discontent
Status: Weary
Status: Undetermined
Status: Unacceptable

What to do?
There's a devil's pitchfork in the road
Which way to go?
4 roads lie ahead

The Restless Age- by: unknown forgotten

I'll tell you this much
I don't want a cigarette
But I am losing my mind
So much as to say
That I feel I can't sit still
Like way back in the day
Before those times past
My blood is beginning to boil
It's almost time for it the whistle to blow

I want to climb halls and walls
Jump off ceilings
And yell out loud
I want to smile always
Emrace lovingly
and have an actual good time
Like when my friends were my friends
And we never had to be afraid

Notes to Self- by: unknown forgotten

Don't lie
Don't cheat
Don't smoke
Don't eat

Don't do drugs
Don't drive too fast
Don't curse
Don't be crass

Do sleep
Do hide
Don't be weak
Time is not on my side

Do love
Do keep safe
Do your best
Don't black out

Don't eat
Don't get weak
Don't ever move
Do sleep

Don't faint
Don't stress
Don't vomit
Time is only a test

Do sleep
Don't feel cold
Do rest
Do your best to remain whole

Starving- by: unknown forgotten

You don't want to know how I've survived
I appear to have faired well over the last couple weeks
But really I've been dieing slowly
But surely more everday
Popping vitamins for a meal
And sleep
Lot of cold quaking sleep
Isolation is the key
That's why you won't really see much of me
Until I figure this out
And things turn around
This time it's a physical fight
A battle against the human body with the mind
The only reason I've appeared to fair well
Is because I've been winning up until now