It's been dark here since I shut my eyes.

These falling leaves tear me apart.

We are washed clean by ignorance and exemption.

Like We're In Control- by: unknown forgotten

In these hard times
We are frail minds
In these frail times
We are lost souls
Running the track
To never come back
Circles and circles
That run tangents to the end of the world
And to this life we have to face
We cheer oursleves on and pound our legs
To speeds never reached
And to lengths never percieved
We will destroy ourselves in our own physical breach
Huzzah! Hurrah! And we bid our congrats!
Join us us in our fatal defeat!!

Take What You Want- by: Five Eight

Only two can tell when you come around the hill
Pulling into town it's been years since you've been around
Had a lousy night of sleep
With your head stealing pieces of what once was said
And dreams that feel so dead
But don't let them make your bed
What is love and fear
Like a dress you never wear
A place that can't be found
Thoughts that still astound
From the corner of you eye
What makes apologies and turn the other cheek
Ah just a fool like me
When you take what you want to
Take what you want to
I'll give it to you
I'll give it to you
Take what you want
The prodigal returns
Father's bride burns
And brother turns his head down to spit on it
We never block things out
I remember every doubt
And what has shed the light
As this city comes into
Take what you want to
Get up we're leaving now
You're father can walk home
His hands on the phone
I feel it in my skin
The way you walk away
The movement of the day
The mystery and joy are clouded with you voice
So take what you want to

The One Who Does Better- by: Five Eight

Soon all you think you know is uncertain and unfamiliar
But life won't lose it's glow the sweetness and dull ache
Though you're the one who does better
Your miracle abides in the way you live
Because it became the way you died
The good nurse knows the way
Her tender little fingers made to shape the clay
I'm going to show you how this feels
The good nurse gives you blood
A bad one gives you mixture
She shuns away the weight
It pushes you away
I think I will sit down
I think aloud
I'll cry soon
I'm not a bit okay
Don't tell me I'm afraid
I want to take you down
I'll show you all around
What do you think makes the difference in this night
We run alone not fall behind the light
Something inside has died
To some of us it's another throw away day
One that we curse and we steal from
As we cheat ourselves from moments left to heal
Without knowing why
Without a reason as it keeps on getting worse
Your medicines on the television
Late night indecision
Will you go far when you wish upon a star
Your wishes are such a cheaper vision
A slender piece of imagination that failed just for the thrill
Hold on still
Come on you're the star
You're the one who does better

"Say buddy," he interrupted
"How does it feel to have destroyed all your loved ones?
I mean," he continued on
"You think you're doin' alright, don't ya?"
"What are you saying?" replied the suit
"Well, you know, I ain't sayin nothing,
It's just that I can tell. I can see it in your eyes."
"Please, leave me alone." said the suit
And he cried.

One Day, These Days, Every Day- by: unknown forgotten

This moment's worth nothing to me
Today I took advantage of the worst part of myself
I delved deeper into my insanity
And got lost in a big city
I broke down twice
The stress is too much
And it's so much harder
When I brought it on myself

Now lets take a different vantage point
And how can you see
And how can you not think there isn't something wrong with me
Every day drives me insane
Even though those thing to everyone else are mundane
I haven't shed a tear in years
I feel so dry, so stale
I just can't line things up
Or get them straight
I don't think anyone believes in me
They have no reason to
Not in success, nor in talent
Not even making it through the next year
Everyday feels like a horrible dream
I live it, then believe it wasn't real
That misery never happened to me
It was just a distant memory
And it's these things that drive me insane
They violently scour my brain
It's repetition that's killing me
It's repetition that's killing me
It's repetition that's killing me
Maybe tomorrow will be completely different
Maybe tomorrow will be exactly the same

Stinging Rain- by: unknown forgotten

It's cold
I should feel it in my bones
But it's been too long
For me to be able to feel
It's these thundering nights
Downpour that never stops
It wears on the heart
The floods leak into my room
And soak me while I sleep
And it's cold, so cold
So cold all alone
I walk around in wet clothes all day
Getting sicker by the minute
And it's wearing on my brain
Each day I wake up again
And put on wet shoes
I look back as if there should be something there
Knowing I'm all alone still
I woke up in my dream
And I thought you were there beside me
There was nothing there
Just these cold sheets
And it's cold, so cold all alone
I should feel it in my bones
But I can't feel anything anymore
This rain that never stops
Is bringing me down
It wearing on my mind
Like thousands of years change stone
Slowly, ever so slowly
In this thundering cold
This frail body of mine
It deceives me in the end
It's cold, so cold
But I can't feel anything anymore

I don't know if I'm lost
But I do know I'm right here

Old Shoes New Shoes- by: unknown forgotten

I dreamt of a dog gnawing my neck
And cars parked in my reserved space
Water flowed into the garage
And washed all my loved ones away
I worked and got mad at the boss
Then ended up magically somewhere else
It was raining still it had all night
I think she was there with her big eyes
Staring into mine by the campfire
But the alcohol made me hide
I got new shoes

Microwave- by: unknown forgotten

I stand half-naked
In front of the microwave
I can feel the radiation
It's throbbing through my veins
The spinning tray
And the glowing light
Amongst the blackened room
I'm cooking up my heart to eat for dinner
It's swelling like a marshmellow
And it's about to explode
Micro waves splash into my brain
Reconfiguring what I thought I had known
With tumors the size of melons
The radiation filtering through the viewing window
It's melting my defrosted soul
And putting cancer in my lungs

That's Not The Way We Do It- by: unknown forgotten

They'll have fun at church
They'll have fun at church without me today
They'll praise god
I'll praise my bed
I'm lost somewhere in all this mess
And the funny thng is
It has nothing at all to do with this

I'll Eat Your Soul- by: Unknown Forgotten

Since the last time
No one believes in me
It's all disregard
For what has changed

I'm not the same
the old boys think I'm strung out
the new ones think I'm crazy as hell
Well, fuck you, hand me the bottle and I'll be alright

Isn't that what everyone would like to think
Well, fuck you, I've been straight
I'm torn up a like a horrid car wreck
Wipe me off the cross walk and I'll be alright

Since the last time I'm better
But you never knew me well anyway
I'll eat your soul

Rip open this road-rashed heart
And I'll show you a black one
That pumps darkness, fuck the light

From it flows only life
I'll wait until you backlash
For that's the way I like it
And show you I'm infinite

Brush those tears from your sockets
Empty swollen eyes are saddened by me
You think you know everthing
You know nothing
I'll truly show you everything

Your shaking body ruptures
To the sound of my voice
Because you know
I love you always

Your feet love that sidewalk that I puke on
Well the rain pulls a hard left in the wind and washes away
You'll never believe
You'll never believe the truth I believe in

When I'm torn open
This will be irrelevant
Crease your pants
Iron your shirts


At my funeral I'll eat your god damned soul
But don't think it won't hurt

I'll break your teeth with a hammer.
Perhaps.
Perhaps I'll break your teeth with a hammer.

Visions- by unknown forgotten

You grabbed my hand
And we fell into it
Like a daydream or a fever
The sun hit my eyes like a car headed straight for us
And all I could do was peer into it
The great stuggle to hold onto memories
My mind flooded with love, distance, and impossible ideas
Until the sun set like a fiery plane crash
And the moon was all I could see
My stomach burned like an ulcer
Flames rippling to my heart
The pain was love
The pain was hurt
I tried, but could not see the future

Being In Love- by: Songs:Ohia


being in love means you are completely broken
then put back together
the one piece that was yours
is beating in your lovers breast
she says the same thing about hers

however I have gotten here I have plans to be with you
and for the first time it is working
it is working

and I am proof that the heart is a risky fuel to burn
yeah, we are proof that the heart is a risky fuel to burn

what's left after that's all gone I hope to never learn
but if you stick with me you can help me
I'm sure we'll find new things to burn

cause we are proof that the heart is a risky fuel to burn
yeah, we are proof that the heart is a risky fuel to burn

Hello God, This is Not the Hour- by: unknown forgotten

It was a long time before I disengaged 4th gear and began to coast freely. The rippling thunder of the cracks in the road beneath my tires resonated within my bones. I could see nothing, absolutely nothing but the fog ahead and my dash lights radiating dimly. The heater was broken, it was cold inside the automobile. My breathe quivered off my trembling lips. The radio had been playing static white noise for hours on end. There wasn't a moment I thought about all this at the time though, my mind was consumed, obesessed on something different completely. As if my brain was frozen in place, constantly repeating to myself "There was nothing left but skeletons and the preacher with bloody hands." I put no thought into deciphering what I had seen.

Everyone Wants to be Me- by: unknown forgotten

Nobody wants to be
Nobody want to be me
With all this new technology
That resides in us

But now I'm getting ready for the deep freeze
Getting ready for my final sleep
My mind is dissolving
Blowing into the autumn breeze

And now that I'm going to fade away
Everyone want to be
Everyone wants to be me
And dissappear too

Extension cords and electric brains
Prostetic fingers and robotic legs
If only I could recieve
These things wont save me

I'll fall from skyscrapers
Infect myself with disease
But the death that is coming
Is nothing I could ever change

There's something strange about the disadvantaged
Those who take the hardest falls
Because hardships bring them grace

Nobody wanted to be me
Its so unfair when they steal my soul
After I'm gone they'll take my place
I want nobody to be

Nobody ever wanted to be me