A Terrible Plan to Suppress-

My heart sings for you
But I silence it's voice
To be vulnerable would be intolerable
I won't allow that choice

To show myself alive
Free to be true
That would not do
I can not love you

My heart wants to express itself
Speak to you with no regrets
Open up and spillover

It sounds ideal
To be in love with you
There is so much appeal

Yet the potential heartache
Writhes inside my mind
A pain so strong it makes me shake

I can not let my heart break yours
I'm sorry I can't be your lover
I can't let my heart hurt another

The hardened heart is only susceptible to destruction
The quieted heart is easily shuttered
The broken heart is not easily mended
The silenced heart tries to speak louder than ever

My heart pines for yours
How do I keep it numbed
It screams and cries:
"Let me love once again!"

I'm sorry I can't
I will live with my fears
I will cage up my desires

I would rather suffer
Than succumb to heartbreak
I'll never again be hurt or hurt another