The Song No One Knows- by: unknown forgotten

He got loaded alone one night
And he started playing guitar
He couldn't remember anything at that point
The date or the name of his girlfriend

He started singing a song he had never learned
It was 4 o'clock in the morning
The sky was black as night
His windows were fully open
The neighbors could hear him sing

They awoke to the noise confused
And were about to yell across the way
But instead they sat there silently
And sang along to the song no one knew

His cell phone dialed in his pocket
It called his Dad who lived far away
He answered thinking it was an emergency
Reaching for the bed lamp and sitting up straight

He didn't know who had called him
But listened to them sing and play
He recognized the voice but couldn't place it
So he hummed along to the song he'd never heard

And to this day no one can repeat it
Many more people sang the words that night
And try as they may they can not remember it
It will remain the song that no one knew

Every once in awhile when he's all alone
He still gets loaded and picks up his guitar
Forgets everything and everyone he's ever known
And plays the song he never learned
But the windows have always been closed
And no one else hears it

My mind is harsh
My heart is soft

That High Pitched Noise and Screaming- by: unknown forgotten

Oh I am a sinner man
All covered in blood
I am a sinner man
All covered in blood
You said you'd save me
You never told me a thing
But the way you are gave me that sign

Well I am a sinner man
Who's taken his own life
I am a sinful soul
Screaming for relief
But you will not help me
You will not believe
Deep down in your own heart
You can save the world

Well I am sinner man
I can stop the bleeding myself
Glory has it's reason
Glory is a gift
Mercy has meshed with my skin
Mercy has saved me from bleeding to death

Folly- by: unknown forgotten

Stumbling through the woods
A boy with an arrow through his ribs
He scrambled up the hillside covered in blood
He tripped upon a slain deer
Insects devouring it's corpse
He laid down next to it
And huddled against it's remaining warmth

Yeah! who walks through the valley of the shadow of death.? Yeah!
You can meet me there, and all the rest!
I'm getting lost and struggling to make it out
Fighting for infinity is blood never shed.
Here we are again.

If nothing else
I celebrate the existence of being.

Holding On - by: unknown forgotten

I am afraid to say
But once born in me as a child was an evil laid to break
And as I wander the lonely city streets
I can ever feel it pounding beneath my skin
It nearly ruptures my heart every earthen night
It practically explodes my brain when I am left alone to think
And all the while I look to Jesus
And he calms the fiery flame

oh woe is me (HA!) - by: unknown forgotten

I don't really eat anymore
I'm never hungry
I don't really love anymore
I can't find a way
I don't sleep anymore
There's no time to waste
I don't do anything anymore
I just sit around and wait
I don't do anything anymore
Such a sad time
I just sit around and drink
HA!
I am
I am everyone and everyone else.

So welcome to the future- by: unknown forgotten

This week is like bizarro week
I don't work I don't fret
I have time to do chores and time to waste
I can stay up late and sleep in too
I can meet with friends whenever
I can be free like everyone I know
I can worry but it does no good
I can lay back or do good but either way I'm just killing time
I can meet you or be afraid and nap
And can correct wrongs or just make it all wrong
This is bizarro week where things play as they may
I can do anything, but I don't really have any control
I need someone to take the handle and move me in the right way

You already know when I know I've gone too deep into nothing.
Ouch.
Then it can't hurt worse when I sink in quicksand.
Huzzah. Help me.

Different Now- by: unknown forgotten

Well that's over
And I've been thinking
New things need to begin
I've got a question for you
And some things to say

Life is short
Life is shit
And soon it will be over

I failed
Hit me next time you see me

I can't really do two things at a time

Even I regret when these eyes turn black
When you're waiting for light

underground- by: unknown forgotten

Terrorize the innocent
To convict the guilty
Show the bystanders shame
To convict the masses
All are guilty
All need to be taught a lesson

They call me anywhere boy
As long as there's another anywhere mind

The Seven Bowels of Seven Dragons Becoming to Man-

Deep down inside all men there lies seven dragons
They feed on themselves from the inside out
And out of their bowels flow torment and death
As is in the end of days we shall all pay for harboring the scaled beasts

The first dragon went out and poured his bowels upon the land
Ugly and painful sores broke out on the people
On all those who worshiped themselves

The second dragon poured out his bowels upon the sea
It turned into blood like that of a dead man
And everything in the sea died

The third dragon poured out his bowels on the rivers and springs of water
They too became blood
He then bellowed loudly, smoke seeping from his nostrils:
" We are just in these judgments
You who are, and who were, bearers of we evils laying inside you all,
because you have so judged when you do not have the right;
We have shed the blood of your saints and prophets
And we have devoured them, and drank their blood
As all humans have brought forth, for all are sinners and deserving of death."
The masses emerged from their homes, eyes blood red, and cried:
"Untrue and unjust have been our judgments!"

The fourth dragon poured out his bowels on the sun
And the sun was given power to scorch the people with fire
They were seared by the intense heat and they cursed the name of God
Even when they had brought these plagues upon themselves
But they refused to realize it

The fifth angel poured out his bowels on the heart of every man
And each man's kingdom was plunged into darkness and devastation
Men gnawed their tongues in agony
And cursed the God of heaven because of their pains and woes
but they refused to recognize how they had destroyed their lives

The sixth angel poured out his bowels on the great river Euphrates
And it's water was dried up to prepare a way for more dragons to progress

Then there was three evil spirits that looked like frogs
They came out of the mouth of the dragon
Out of the mouth of beasts
And out of the mouth of man
They transformed into false prophets performing miraculous signs
And they spread across the whole world
To gather men for the battle on the great day of destruction

The seventh dragon poured out his bowels into the air
And out of the dragon's caves came a loud voice saying:
"It is done!"
Then there came flashes of lightning,
rumblings, peals of thunder, and a severe earthquake
No earthquake like it has ever occurred since man has been on earth
So tremendous was the quake the earth split in three
And the cities and nations collapsed
The dragons remembered the faces of the very worst of men
Swooped down and engulfed them in flames through their flaring mouths
Every island fled away and the mountains could not be found
From the sky huge hailstones of about a hundred pounds each fell upon man
And they cursed each other
Because the plague was so terrible

(Inspired by Revalations Ch. 16)

Water- by: unknown forgotten

I drank so much water
I drank so much water I began to feel sick
It was supposed to make me feel healthier
So I drank more
I drank water until my teeth were cold
And my stomach overfilling
And I kept drinking
I chugged and chugged the clear liquid of life
I was going to be healthy
And that was the way
I drank water until it started to come out of my eyes
On my knees I fell over and fell asleep
An empty glass of water
And a tear stain on my face
It was going to be alright

Spitting Blood Revisited
Part II: Hit & Run- by: unknown forgotten

Next time I follow my intuition
I need you more than ever
In cases like this my life flashes before my eyes
Not during the disaster
But after I've gotten up bleeding and walked away
As I lay on the pavement checking for pouring blood
Feeling my limbs to see if any are missing
I saw you in my distorted vision
For a moment I forget about the disaster
For a moment I forget about the pain
The blood and agony is only second to your vision in my mind
And it all comes down to my intuition
My sense of self control
I remembered where I made the mistake
I'm sick of living in the retrospective
I shall speak free forever more

I need a hug
or a hand to hold
A pulse to set my rythme by
A heart to pace my heartbeat
A moment to slow down
Just sit still in peace

Flee From Me You Bastard- by: unknown forgotten

I woke up in the morning
Then I rode into a car
I looked down from the balcony
Then I saw myself sliding on the ground
I drove away leaving me laying on the ground
I thought about the future
And how it was at this moment
Disturbed from my previous wanted ways

I tightened down my pedals
Then I bent them right next to my bleeding ankle
He brought me inside and gave me drink
I wondered what the taillights were thinking as they pulled away from the scene
This is fucked what the fuck
I wish I had plowed into them
So they could see what happens
See what happens when idiots drive 4 wheels
Where were they going
Where did I go?

I wiped down the frame and left it was cold
Then I hurled myself and bike onto the pavement
For no reason but sure pleasure and enjoyement
Because, really, I really do
I really love destruction
and I really love being hurt

Trinity- by: unknown forgotten

Explosions in the sky
Tanks on the ground
Soldiers marching
I was the second one shot down
Third to die

My Own Grave- by: unknown forgotten

I've got this deal
It's called a dissappearing act
It's a trick, more of a trap
I fall into it
And am not heard from for awhile
I dug the hole already
All I need is incentive to take one more step

but really
while you're watching
I just sneak out the back
And don't come back

I am great.

I broke my last lightbulb
From here out it's only getting darker.

You love what you die for.

Forget It- by: unknown forgotten

Hey give me another drink
I'm trying to drown myself from being great
Hey put me down tonight
Smother me with a pillow and please don't cry
oh I'll be screaming from beneath the down
but after it's over we can all just forget it

We can all just forget
In the future we can all lose our memory if we try hard enough
White wash a memory we loved so much
Clean the slate and erase everything

We can all forget if we try hard enough
Just lose all thought and change the subject
Burn a hole in our brains and delete the thought process

We can all forget
We can all just forget
As easy as that
We can forget
But taking it that far
Getting to the point where we no longer want to relate
Has to be one of the hardest theories we could ever create

and in the end
I can not forget a thing

I am all wrong
When won't I feel distraught?

I want to understand.

The Ghost Heart- by: unknown forgotten

Tonight I turn the music up loud to drown my dreams

I like to drink before I sleep
To erase the memory of everything that day

'Nevermind me'
It's quite a motto
for destruction nonetheless
When redemption is all I wish to possess

Wearing Thin Before My Time- by: unknown forgotten

If you ask me once
I will say nothing ever again

If I see one more person pass by and entirely ignore me
(Such as is my existence)
Even yet, when I'm speaking to them
I'm going to break apart into the air so thin

Watching eyes and never do they meet
Stepping aside and watching everyone relate
How easily I break and dissipate

I wanted you there
until I realized the darkness and desolation I express
When the ground started to sink in
The heavens rained down fire
I was glad you were not there
But only to avoid the disaster that lie there within
If I had seen your face I would have broken
I would have fell to my knees
but instead I was lost wondering to make sense of the catastrophe

Take another look
Look at me
My back is still broken
Look again
Now stop looking

It's been so long that I've forgotten how to hold a serious conversation with someone
I don't know how to start
I don't know how to reply
I don't know how to ask
I am out of practice

Take a look
Look at me here
My back is broken

I think it's safe to say
that you are a reoccuring character in my dreams

When I test the waters
I always forget how to swim

I want to embrace
I am a boring character
Afraid of risk

Concentration- by: unknown forgotten

It's beginning to get hard to concentrate
It's getting difficult to sit still when alone
It's becoming a problem to get to bed before late
It's always a worry of life under the moon
It's a continuing problem with a tense back that aches and cracks
It's still a spinning dizzy head that pains the brain
It's never being able to completely understand the facts and relax
It's a hard enough time already staying sane without devastation
It's wrestling the whole world within the worst holy wrath
It's destroying dreams deep down to dispose disputant distress
It's sincere substance survival versus surreality's silhouette of salvation and sensibility
It's null normality and neglect narrating nonsense nostalgia notwithstanding notoriety
Zealous of Zeus in the zenith zigzagging through the o-zone, my zeppelin will arrive at zerohour to zoom me to Zion behind the zircon sun. I will rest in the zephyr and zinnia's playing my zither as a zombie.

Concentration, what! -by: unknown forgotten

For it's beginning to get hard to concentrate
Ubiquitous, it's getting difficult to sit still when alone
Course, it's becoming a problem to get to bed before late
Keeping as it's always been, a worry of life under the moon
Yet it's a continuing problem with a tense back that aches and cracks
Often it's just a spinning dizzy head that pains the brain
Usually it's never being able to completely understand the facts and relax
Jaded, it's a hard enough time already staying sane without devastation
Of course, it's wrestling the whole world within the worst holy wrath
Subtly, it's destroying dreams deep down to dispose disputant distress
Heinous, it's sincere substance survival versus a surreal silhouette of salvation and sensibility
Under it all, it's null normality and neglect narrating nonsensical nostalgia notwithstanding notoriety
And in the end, zealous of Zeus in the zenith, zigzagging through the o-zone my zany zeppelin will arrive at zerohour to zoom me to Zion behind the zircon sun.
! I will rest in the zephyr and zinnia's playing my zither as a zombie and eating zesty zwieback. Zing!

Ghetto-

Good Sir or Ma'am to whom which I speak,
You do not know whom I am, or from whence I have arrived.
I shall do so as I please and see proper.
Regardless of any incoherence there may be between us.
Thank you, and I shall be on my way.
My good Sir or Ma'am! Shame be on you!
I surely hope you did not commit the actions I have just now, this very moment, witnessed.
Speak only to the palm of my hand that I have presented in front of you as a sign of commanded silence, or rather do not continue to speak further on this matter, for I wish not to hear any more of what you may have to say at this present juncture.
Good day, and thank you for behaving so rationally. Let us now part ways, leaving this issue mutually unresolved, to avoid any further complications that could lead to aggression.

Half of me always wants to say "fuck it" and give up
The other half of me persists
and tries to keep moving
Fighting against what the other half sees insignificant
it does so, thankfully
The latter keeps my heart pumping
and does so, even when it hurts

Even yet how jealous I grow
Lord help me lay low

Listen Closely to the Human- by: unknown forgotten

The sound of a sole person pacing about in a completely silent room
The set of every foot on the ground, one after the other
The sole of the shoe touching the ground
The squeak and stretch of the shoe as force is put upon it
The brush of the pant cloth rubbing together
and the movement of the legs deciding if that noise be made depending on step
The sound of breathing that is so often over looked
Each and every inhale, each and every exhale
The silence that abides in between
The arms swaying

Feel the action of introspection
Every muscle moves and they are there to be felt
The neck is holding up the head
The back is stiff in uprightness
The legs are tense, even when relaxed to support the entire human mass
The toes move endlessly, every step the flex and bend to balance the mass
Fingers twitch or lie still, depending on the conscious and unconscious signals sent from the brain
Feel every nerve end as the clothes embody your skin
Your shirt, your underwear, your socks
Feel your hair rest lightly upon your scalp!
It is always there touching you, yet we forget
The face expresses concern, sadness, glee, it's infinite!
And the heartbeat beat beat beat beat beat
The grumble of an empty stomach
The cracking of a worn joint
The human is a marvel
in silence pacing we disrupt the tranquility
The silence we disrupt is overlooked

Saints- by: unknown forgotten

I bit the bullet
It broke my teeth and came out the back of my neck
I caught the arrow in my hand
Or so I tried
It kept going and sliced two fingers off my right hand

You were a saint
You used to be
So was I
Back in the monastery in our vow of silence
I could levitate and turn water into wine
You could heal the wounded with your spit and slight of hand

Now we're desperate men
Changed hearts and confused minds
So I tried one last attempt
To prove my worthiness in this life

I had bitten the bullet
It didn't turn out so well
I caught the arrow
I'm handicapped for the rest of my life
Last I heard you were dead
Died drunk choking on your own vomit
Your bloodstream infected with disease

I meditated in a field of lilacs
To levitate once again
I rose high above the ground
Higher even yet
A large gust of wind came down from the heavens
And blew me off the horizon like a speck of dust

We were saints
We used to be

Try And Follow Me- by: unknown forgotten

It was like greasy pavement
And a burning tree
Whirled up into one big monstrosity
There was black skies
And protestors chanting
Cars everywhere
Something being rumored about burglaries
Cinder blocks and yellow paint
Sewage and railroad tracks forcing upon the senses
It was like a tv exploding (which I've never seen)
and an empty stroller rolling freely down a hill
Furniture knocked over
Stoves smoking in empty homes
And a dog fight
I heard a gunshot
After I felt the bullet enter my flesh
And that was it
I remember nothing else

Romantics- by: unknown forgotten

Oh divine incantation
Why do my eyes dash away at moments last
And walk away somewhere else
When with thee I've never better felt
Lay still, let your mind sleep
I will not move an inch until you awake
For to disturb you in this precious moment
Would be a ruin against myself
I too, silent slumberer, shall sleep the best sleep of my life

You were in my dream
Directly before I awoke
Your eyes glowed brightly
Your face illuminating
The thing I love most
Is that even when you are not here
You still make me smile at thought

Improvident Sunday- by: unknown forgotten

Oh how the clock hands turn slowly
I woke up early for no reason
Expecting to win the world over
but lo, I as the cold gray sky moves slowly
I am still here
Purely exsisting to exist
No cause or matter for now
The world hustles and frets
Creating, making life change
But as the clock moves ever so slowly
I will have gotten nothing done
I long for escape in the hour
I long for adventures and danger and fun
I would venture out into the wind and the cold
If only I had a means to travel
If only I had somwhere to go

Chewing on a paperclip
Biting down on tin foil
I don't have any fillings
It doesn't hurt
Gnawing on gravel
Sucking on dirt

There's no time
And that's what proves me wrong
Because I can't face you now
Forgive me if I try anyway

I say
I say across the great divide
Is a union so strong that the canyons walk to each other
That the gravity is so strong mighty eagles soaring fall to the ground
That rivers flow upwards and the air is sweet
The mountians flatten themselves to make up the mass
To create what was always meant to be
To close the gap between
To close the great divide for once and for all
To seal the earth whole again

And then I went to sleep.

The world within I live
The world within I work
The world within I love
The world within I write
The world within I die

I Don't Remember (Considering Forgetting)- by: unknown forgotten

So I was thinking of forgetting
And it's probably a good idea
if I went ahead and did that
and stopped thinking
and started forgetting

The Tale of the Bypassed Hero- by: unknown forgotten

I will not draw an end to this chapter
Though my mind so often tells me to
I can fight the dragons that call themselves human
I can see you're a damsel lost in the night
I don't know what character I play yet
Sometimes I feel I am not really any part
but I will refuse that belief for the time being
I can be more than that
I am the hero, anti-hero so it shall be
That will slay the dragons in the end
Somehow I will rise to the moment
And walk righteously and loved the rest of my life

The Same Fucking Thing- by: unknown forgotten

Where is love?
Where is it's stance?
What is it's chance?
Where are it's hooks and strings?
Where is love?
Where is the arrow through the heart?
Is that good or it is only hurt?
How does it show its face?
How does is show humility and disgrace?
Where is love?
Why does it haunt us so?
Why does it linger overhead?
Why does it often never show?
Where is love?
What is it's plan?
How long will it last?
How long will it enchant?
Where is love?

You Ask Me - by: unknown forgotten

I reach that point where I become so abstract and non-informative
That nobody gets the jist of what I'm saying
Huzzah to that, don't get me wrong
You're confused and I've brought that onslaught
I am then thoroughly pleased if it is appropriate according to me
But this conflicts with what I'm really trying to say when it need be so
Which I should never really say for reasons that it has always backfired
Always, thus leading me into further silence and distorted interpretations
Altering the appearance to lead your mind conveniently astray
Unless there is a solid concensus and preapprovement on what should be said
without me giving the notion that that is what I would like to say,
but only with whom I'm interacting with on a one to one basis,
I will hold virtually silent reagarding any discussion that requires me express my mind and heart
In social cased I end up being the odd man out in the circle of several people
Thrown aside by my lack of words, and/or my lacksadaisical innuendos that are no more than common speach amongst people, that for no reason should be taken for more than it is, yet I expect it to be interpreted as an exceptional notion of exaggerated, yet heartfelt truth
Thus leaving me disenchanted, disassociated, and once again, not wanting to say what I have to say

I will be alive again, someday...

Serpents at Night- by: unknown forgotten

I had a dream I was bitten by two snakes
They were hanging from a tree as I walked outside a house
One bit my left hand
I shook it off, grabbed it by its neck and threw it a away
The second bit my right hand
Between the thumb and forefinger
I let it inject inject its vile poison
I watched as it pumped venom into my skin
I could the feel the poison working
Swelling up my arm and my veins
Finally it let go after half a minute
And I grabbed it by the neck
Let go and ran as it tried to bite me again
Just out of reach it hissed a vile noise
And I felt weary
I was dying

I think I've met both snakes
They're killing me right now
Always in the back of my mind
And although I've never been bitten
You've been killed twice already

And you were there
In a flashback within my dream
As I was explaining hurriedly to someone of what just happened
I collapsed to the ground
And in the vision I saw you
We were hugging our arms wrapped around
The people just stood by as my life fled

Today is the day I rise to fame
And lay waste to all ye motherfuckers on the earth
I'm a hero in my own regards
After today there will be no more scum
I will lay waste to the evil and wrongdoers
Today I will rise to fame

I'm breaking under my ignorance
I tell myself all I need is time
Well time has come and gone

And after all that, what do we have to say to ourselves?

Let's get light years away from all things that people say
My tongue is tied too tight
If I ever learned to converse I could learn something

At this moment
Exactly replicated in the far future
But before cars can fly freely
I will be remember what happened
And I will console you regardless of the latter
I will never be shot down

What is it that I am doing?

What I (haven't) hear(d)- by: unknown forgotten

I'm sorry to hear that.
I'm glad, yet further confused, to hear that.
I don't want to hear that.
I'm looking forward to hear that.
I'll hear from you.
Even better, I'll contact you.

I've never observed my own behavior.

This winter stands alone.

The future looks good
I am full of hope
I will I prevail
Here I am honest
God is my witness
Only if you believe in me

I am burning under the moon
And cooling in the ocean

Lady Temptress, Lady Doom, Lady Lover, Lady Could Lay Ruin- by: unknown forgotten

I ride to come home
Until then I will remain alone
Hear me now
Lady, now, hear me again
I am coming soon
I've fallen
And if you don't mind
Lady, I will stay down for this moment in time
I'm just waiting until you quit picking my soul for the gold coin inside
Even though you don't know
It's only wrapped with gold foil
And filled with chocolate inside

What's that, Lady, you love chocolate?
What's that Lady, you didn't even care?
Where this chocolate is 1/2 my blood
And if you still find it worthy to consume...

Lady! Don't trick me into joy
If you rip open my chest and tear out my heart
Let it be to hold near to yours
because in life that is all I wish

Lady, I will lay my life for you
As the Song of Eternity goes
"I will see you from this moment
To forever more and more."

Don't fret, Lady, I will be there
Forever more and more.

Sundancer, The Destruction of RA!- by: unknown forgotten

Quite often I wish I was always alone
To bide my time in the middle of the night
The sincerity in seclusion is rewarding

I lay on the gasoline soaked floor
It wicks into my clothes and I gag from the fumes
Oh, take me now oh lord

The knife cuts my finger open wide without my consent
The deepest red blood weeps slowly, then painstakingly
I squeal and nearly cry as it rains down on down on down

Dear christ, help me now
I've tasted the oil, it's on my lips
I've altered every point in my life to make it not spark

but "NAY!" you say
And instead you make every point burst to life
I cry out in distraught in the middle of the mess

"Stop the horror! Let my heart rev high!?" I scream in distress
Of course it will not pulse consistently
My brain cut off from the nerve center it so utterly requires

I run down the street at full speed weeping
The rain soaks my bare skin to a slough
"I will not give up! I will not!" my flooded soul determines

Slipping on a drain-hole I lose my grip
My jaw hits the ground first
What a dream as my life blazes before me

I predicted this moment many yonder days
"But you were mine, and I was yours!
Now, at this moment, we are neither!" I cry

In the darkest of all nights
My head is spilt upon the ground
Brains spinning, splattered, sliding down the hill

"Here I come, Lord. I am yours."
My body slides short of fifteen feet
And stops a brutally mangled mess

My story ends as the problem has not been solved
So many issues to be addressed that take so much time
Once I make an order for mercy
It will take a couple of weeks to arrive

I'd like to say things are worse then they are
Thankfully they are not
My naivete is my only guide
What else do I have?

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Look away- by: unknown forgotten

Unextraordinarily extraordinaire
There is nothing here more than the ordinary
This is not a place for the great moments of life
This is the day to day relapse of moments
Unextraordinary moments that are artifiicial
Look away, don't believe there is hope
Everything is inevitable
All that I've said before
I'm trying to avoid it all
Look away, don't trick yourself
If you don't you'll be disappointed in the end
Everything is inevitable
There is no reason to avoid it
But don't suck yourself in

It's Never Been So Loud- by: unknown forgotten

I never realized the music was so loud
Here in the warmth I lay down and go to bed
The lights can be bright or dim as night
Outside the rain is falling so cold

But in this place I am at peace at least
Until I realize the music is so loud
When there's someone else here
There's no reason for the noise to blare

Say, to keep me company I crank the volume
Perhaps, to lull my mind away
My heart hasn't skipped a beat in these lonely weeks
No palpitations, no flutters, no breaks

I could talk forever
And the music is so loud
I could never talk at all
And the music keeps me calm

You make me pleasantly uncomfortable and I like that
You make me pleasantly uncomfortable and I don't like that

Vagueness- by: unknown forgotten

When it's pitch black
I can't see the smoke
And after awhile
My eyes adjust to the night
And I still can't see the smoke

-------

You are the ex-confidante turned acquaintance
Like shrapnel you came from nowhere
And sliced me to bits
You snuck up and took my legs
And lodged metal in my heart
I swear that here in this bunker
With my last bit of strength
I will put a bullet between your eyes

You were a chauffeur
A delivery messenger
You delivered the goods
And in turn ended up empty handed
Forced to walk home
And watch the turmoil to come

You were the all seeing eyes of god
Who could foresee it all before me
You asked me 'why not?'
I was ignorant in the moment
I moved too late
I lost the reward before it was apparent to me
Your trouble is all you do is shudder
You are no help when help is needed

You were the silent voice
That never spoke a word
Yet you spoke everything when no one was looking
And I have never met you face to face
The questions you supply are answers in themselves
You were always there but never seen
And incredibly hard to ignore in your absence

You were the child
You stood on the roof late at night
Watching the neighbors come home
Betraying your bed time and conscious
Defying your parents whose conviction was strong
You tasted life and sucked on it
Yet you came around eventually
After you saw your friends taste life and snort it
And that's why you ran

You were the early stages of life about to end
Your words were nonsensical
You were about to develop into something magical
But infiltrater's smothered you in your sleep
Put a plastic bag over your head
And watched you asphyxiate
At that point you were irrelevant

You were in the middle of it all
You knew nothing more than I did
Yet you were the problem all along
You were preyed upon and left for nothing
Just a broken soul and a new look at life that was less than before
I didn't see you for quite some time
Now you're back and figuring it out

You were always gone and never around
We'd pass in passing and talk about nothing
You saw life differently and wasted not a moment
You're still so afraid to stop moving that you are dyeing
A slave to the world and you get nothing back
Just a moment of depression every now and then
And a napsack

You're the one who tricked me one night
but now you're gone and that's alright
You were the devil in disguise

Sometimes I forget who I am.
If you look hard enough there's a nice guy inside.

(infinity):1- by:unknown forgotten

There are so many people in the world
I've seen them
I hardly know any of them
They are everwhere all the time
You are one of them
There are so many people
I believe in a sort of destiny that brings us together
I've stood in the middle of the masses and looked around
You're the one I saw

The inevitable as the basis of everything
Life can be good or bad
As of late I have been extremely calm
My dreams have been guiding, distracting my fear
The life of mine has been eased into surreal
Not to say I don't worry
I worry of how to handle good things to come

Anglewise- by: unknown forgotten

Anglewise in the street tonight
Grinding flesh against man made mother nature
The world is hardened with a black top
and we fall upon it

Anglewise in my sleep tonight
Laying under the sun
On a sandy beach around dawn
You're wrapped under my arm

Anglewise in my linguistics
Sorry I stutter and choke
Hoping to speak with you
Walking away so cowardly afraid

Anglewise I reach to embrace you
The motion is unspecific and I retreat
Slipping sideways I back away
And anglewise I fret the worst

But what do I know?

A Fox And A Wolf- by: unknown forgotten

I'm sorry I didn't see you
I'm sorry I missed you today

Tomorrow and the morrow will always will a way
I feel the lack of life that I have survived

Do not despair for the distant
Only time will tell the fortune
Of the world spinning unbeknownst to man

There's a phantom on my shoulder
He's kept me straight until the dawn
And you praying from a distance
From your own home
Where I wish I was visiting instead

Next time I see your heart
Next time you grant me that chance
I will blossom it
I will try my best at least

As my dreams tell me
It won't be enough
As my dreams tell me though
I will be killed by a fox and a wolf

I had a dream it all came together
Something was happening

Waiting for what I don't believe in

Lioness- by: unknown forgotten

Your claws hit me at such high intensity
That I plunged backwards through the ground
The earth moved away as I sank through the dirt
And the grave we created held me still for sometime
The scars of your claws rest upon my brow and cheek
The wounds wept water for hours until the blood clogged the pores
At that point I was dead

You had looked down at the horror you just made
And though I couldn't see out of my swollen eyes
Or up from the deep dark hole in which I lied
I think you were crying and calling my name
I asked you to lay with me as I was fading away
And you did and held my broken head
You kissed me several times and we embraced
Then god pulled you out from down in my resting place
And sealed up the dirt by making it all cave in
At that point I was dead
But I felt no pain
You made a cross and put it upon my grave
And on my lifeless lips rested my last word which was your name

You are the reason I hate me
I am the reason I hate you

Against your best wishes
I wish you bad luck

I would rather not live in the arbitrary and benign

Everything is fine- by: unknown forgotten

You and me whenever you see fit
Everything is fine

You and me have never really talked
Everything is fine

I'm terrible at all of this
Everything is fine

You and me whenever we go wrong
Everything is fine

You and me in different rooms
Everything is fine

Got to sleep early and live to regret
Everything is fine

You and me and I don't know what to do
Everything is fine

Everything is fine
And I feel great all the time

You and me whenever you see fit.

And when I finally reveal to you
You won't believe me
Because simply saying so makes no sense

More or less
I know the score
Is this all fake sparkle
Or golden dust?

I am not invincible
Far from it

Weeping Scalp- by: unknown forgotten

There's a spot on my head that leaks puss
It's a giant blister not visible
That weeps all day and night
It's totally brutal
It's forshadowing of something
Or maybe a clue
It's got some really deep meaning
It's important like the meaning of life
But I don't know
The rest is up to you

Break My Back- by: unknown forgotten

I'm holding back
And I must contest
I'm afraid of you and what would come next
You don't know me right now
You might think that I am a man
That is wanting to drown

But trust me you are wrong
If only I wasn't holding back
If I wasn't a man afraid
I could move forward on and on
And on
And move on
If I only had the courage

Unnerved- by: unknown forgotten

I just want to talk to you
I don't even want to talk to you
I want to stare into your eyes for hours

G'nite- by: unknown forgotten

I moved my bed for feng shui
Now I sleep in a cozy hole
3 walls hold me tight
The empty spaces releases my mind
The sterophonics guide me in to the slumber world
A weight of blankets keep me warm through the winter
The darkness reminds me I'm alone
I lie tighlty against the cold wall
There's something missing still

I've got my down times
I don't have my up times

Lay here with me
Fall asleep
And we will be

I remember when I was a big black liar.

Overdue confetti

Nomenclature- by: unknown forgotten

You know the name I call
It's always been yours
I haven't lost it's meaning
In fact I wrote a song about it

You know I've called your name
It's always been yours
I never forgot the pronunciation
In fact I learned it before anyone

Between the lines?
Look between the lines,
there's nothing there, dipshit.
It's just a blank space.

Too bad real life doesn't have a default. Because you and I, we'd be it.

Oh shit
It's Vomitron!
look at that
He's vomiting
oh man
I just cleaned that carpet
oh shit
It's Vomitron!
Damnit
That really smells bad

Then there was a new tide that rolled upon the Puget Sound. It brought fresh water and a new sweeter scent than before. And after how much we loved the old tides, how we could rely on the subtle crashing waves, the new one shall wash many new adventures upon the shore. And open up new worlds for us to explore.

"...scrutiny of some sort.
I am an asshole."

Your time away- by: unknown forgotten

I didn't see your face amongst the crowd
And in my moment of joy
I frowned
What is it that draws me to you
What was it that caused me to distance before
Before I even knew
Before I initially lost you
I remember now
Twas a fellow fellow
And creates the awkward feelings
I'd like to know you more
but circumstances made it more difficult
More than I know how to cope
I'm so sorry you went away and in the end
in the end made yourself sad
I didn't intervene like I should have in the beginning
I'm sorry I failed
But what is this but nothing more than a lingering dream,
lost in the retrospective?
Dear darling,
even I would reconcile and wash clean
Even I would drop everything for you

Lesson #1- by: unknown forgotten

Told the right hand to the face
This ain't a bottle a bourbon
It's a bottle of life

Told the left hand to the stomach
This ain't a fiction
This is the truth

Told the bloody face to the fists
This ain't a struggle but against yourself
It's a massacre no matter how you see it

Told the bludgeoning to the recipient
This ain't an onslaught it's a lesson
This is the truth

You(')r(e) God (?)- by: unknown forgotten

No you're wrong
I don't hate the gods
I hate your god
Even worse I hate you
Between the things you say and the actions you do
With the way you say it in the manner you do
I don't hate your god I hate you
Your god could smite me down
Depending on how much you actually believe
But as I said
I don't hate the gods I hate you

Deap Inside- by: unknown forgotten

Kill me
Kill me and worship
Worship me
Kill me
Let me sleep tonight
Let me roll under the dirt and be a hero
Let me sleep again
Kill me and worship me
To see what we've never seen
To explore
What we've never known to explore
What we've never thought to explore
Deap deap inside

7665 days or
183960 hours or
11037600 seconds
and counting

As much as I enjoy surviving in my own universe and reality, independent of the fast paced moving society and world surrounding me, I do request the company of others occasionally. And for the record, I don't really enjoy this unwarranted seclusion.

Forcing the introspective on the retrospective- by: unknown forgotten

I drank last night's water.

I gulped it down.

I sipped the remembrance of a time I wish I tried not to forget.

In the morning

After the poison has worked its course

We shall see where it leaves me

We will see where I am at

The time is drawing ever near where I may ask that you do not leave me alone, on that certain and pertaining frost-bitten eve. Where the trees cry mercy from the freezing moisture that drips down low and freezes the sidewalks with ease. The air is unholy and aching to the bones and marrow. The sun is forgotten and the night is oh so long. The holidays attempt to warm our cold souls. But nothing no nothing can stop me from feeling forgotten and unknown.

The duely interpretive manifestation of the lyrics of life; Unextraordinaire- by: unknown forgotten

These words are deceitful
I am not about the extraordinary moments
I am not full of poems and rhyme
My speech hardly ever contains any deep thoughts
I am not a romanticist in real life
Of course these things cross my mind
Of course I try to be and try to say what I really mean

But no one I have ever met is really the manifestation of the lyrics of life
Our hearts dream, our minds wander
They do not transfer from day to day struggles
I wish I could, I wish I could speak
My my lips tremble and lisp and my mind shatters
Every time I look in the mirror I have forgotten my face
Every time I listen to my voice it sounds like a stranger speaking

I could sit alone and write a beautiful poem
but what is the use when I can't recite it aloud
The moment these words are written I have forgotten it all
To say I am solely artful is a lie
Though most is a voice speaking from someone else
But what I fear most is that these words and writings
Will never be capable of affecting someone directly
And instead influencing the lives of people I've never met
So it shall be and that also brings me great hope
But to the lonely hearts to which I can never speak
Embrace my mind and help me control my mind and tongue and speach

The Untimely Demise of Creation- by: unknown forgotten

Wind fire water death destruction
The tides are changing
Washing away homes
Flooding buildings on the inland

Snakes are slithering down the streets
Biting the ankles of the children
Squeezing their life right out

Rabid dogs running rampant
Tearing open throats and snapping off fingers
Dragging bodies out of town

Vultures circling constantly
Forming massive brooding clouds
Pecking out the eyeballs of people who aren't even dead yet

Natural disasters crumbling buildings
Sucking up the earth in violent quakes
Oozing molten lava to consume all in its path

Wind fire water death destruction
The sun is coming up too early
Blazing and painfully hot
Blistering and scorching this wasted planet

It's time to go- by: unknown forgotten

I've taken a rest
I've taken a break
I've had my down time
Now I'm ready to react
It's you

Give me your hand darling
We're going out
We're leaving right now
I'm gonna take you to places you've never seen
Show you a world beautiful and clean
Marvelous wonders that will make you cry
Delicious delicacies for you to indulge
Fields of flowers so tender so quiet with scents that glow for miles
Roaring red sunsets that rip right through the purple sky
Over slowly crashing waves of the calm blue ocean deep
Give me your hand darling
It's time to go
I've got so many things to show you
Let me take you away
To a place where passion is sweet
and love only grows

My heart is about to explode
Tonight I will dream
And learn from all my unconcious has to tell me
I hope to meet you there on this cold eve

Everything I envision though these eyes is an allusion.

I wish that the night would rattle on
Never ending even until dawn
I'm ready for a struggle to push through the dark
To keep on keepin' on
Until the the sun pulls over the horizon

Uh oh

I can't keep track of time very well lately
Days, minutes, months, hours
It's all the same

It comes as such a shock to find myself down and out when I tried so hard.

Awakening- by: unknown forgotten

He awoke early
Before he would normally bludgeon his alarm
The sky was light and showed through the window
He sat up and thought:
"Remember, I am the one who made this mess."
He cast off the covers to the floor
And he spoke aloud:
"I am not afraid."

I am silent
Here and now
I have nothing to say

I have deep thoughts
And mental images
I have visions and dreams of the future

But right here
At this moment
I am silenced

Today was Wednesday all day long.

You see?
I can make a terrible sound
I can scream until my throat bleeds

Fate in the Ocean- by: unknown forgotten

Fate in the ocean
There's nothing that I rely on

Fate in the ocean
The ebb and tide
Who am I

The crimson tides
And the long sleak roads
The crashing waves
You can fight them
But you won't die

The moon told me to shut the fuck up
The sun told me to be louder
The wind told to move faster
The ocean told me I was OK

The moon was tired of hearing my troubles
The sun wanted me to shout in joy
The wind wanted me to move or be moved
The ocean wanted me to relax and enjoy

Fate in the ocean
You and I
Salt and sand

Arms Outstretched- by: unknown forgotten

Tell me who you are when you are naked
Dancing around the room
Singing songs
Reveling in your privacy and absolute security
I want to be the replacement
I want to be the complement

Show me who you are when you lay down for bed
All your preparations
How you lay most comfortably
Peaceful dreams of what you want life to be
Include me
I can help you dream

Tell me who you are when you feel sad
Holding back the tears
All your worst fears
All alone and feeling lost
I want to be there
I want to hold you near and dear

And the Lord did not speak:
"Don't you think it's time to stop time? For real this time."
And the consious agreed: "Yes."

Think Last Days, Think Pain- by: unknown forgotten

We're all going to die
This is why I must insist

We're not going to last much longer
The sun will overheat
The Europe will attack
Man-eating plants
Poison you place on the edge of my drinking glass
And vica versa versa viced

The final wind is starting to blow
Ashes to ashes dust to dust
Plains of boiling quicksand
Ocean's levels rising over our homes
Meteorites crashing down
The O-Zone need I say more?

We're all going to die
If that helps expain my impatience

Let's try one more time
And

I ' m not so sure but

I

hope I can


reach your extended




hand .

Negative- by: unknown forgotten

Chum in water
Tastes like my lunch
These miserable days
Everything looks like crap

A beater for a vehicle
An old moldy sandwich for lunch
A job that sucks me soul-less
Friends that hate my guts

A dangerous night
Liquor that rots the liver
So many smokes made of sawdust
I'm dreaming of brilliant things
that turn to terrible things
In quite a flash

Weak bones
Softer teeth
With a mind so brittle eye to eye makes me weep

Social turned anti turned loathing turned jealous
Love turned dream turned distance turned regret
Ain't it like everything else
Ain't everything the worst

"Thanks for showing me the absolute worst"
"Okay," I think, "I'm going home now."
Such a disaster I vomit once I reach my toilet
At least I have tomorrow and the same ol' same ol' shit

These people hate me
Granted I hate them
Such a wonderful world this isn't
Such a terrible place I curl up and shiver

Mud in a bowl is my cereal for breakfast
Sacrilegion is my vision for the day
Anarchy for a mid day snack
Totally fucked up shit to top it all of
And I think I have cancer
I think my lungs are bleeding
Woe is me.

You walked away silent girl
Rightfully so
Down the hill

I looked away, shifty eyes
And forgot all or so I thought
Staring at the sun

I am harmless
In all shapes and colors
I've heard that is part of my problem
Even at my worst

I hold this highly
I never want to progress

Hold Everything Near And Dear- by: unknown forgotten

Some poeple have too much
Some people don't have enough

I need to crack this back of mine
And straighten out my neck

I need to snap this neck of mine
And straighten out my back

To stand tall

Somewhere I lost track of time
So the seasons went by

Winter to summer
Summer back to winter

And I missed all the extraordinaire

I had the moments
And I wanted to stand with you
beneath the setting sun and the rising moon
But they passed until the next year
And my back is still tight and my neck stiff

I can't tell what you're thinking when I talk to you
You go into those silent modes
Sort of like what I often do

As I layed down for bed
My eyes rolled back
Into my head

And I sank
Into a deep sleep

Dear Mistress- by: unknown forgotten

I've got the lonliest drink
called whiskey

I've got this shit called
the conversation you regret

I've got the possessions
leftover

I've got the attitude
of a big meanie

I've got the lonliest heart
missing you

I've got roses
Red

The Hardest Winter Yet- by: unknown forgotten

Rejoice world!
The sun is setting earlier
Darkening our minds
The wind is getting colder
Hardening our hearts
The air is getting wetter
Softening our souls

Rejoice world!
It's that time of year
When we long for someone to be with
Someone to confide in
Not like the warmer months
When the sun was our only friend
And a lonely day in the park was bliss

Rejoice world!
Mother nature has us figured out
God has set out his plan
We shall fret and worry
Feel alone and unloved
Until we can take off our sweaters again
Unless we have someone to take it off for us

Instead of getting up
And going out there
And taking over the world
Instead of getting up
Clearing my head
And interacting with friends
Instead of getting up
And making dinner
And feeding my withering body
Instead of getting up
And finding you
And loving you
Instead of getting up
I'm going to stay right here.

Weary-

Somewhere out there
There's a place where dreams come true

All I can ever do is wait
All I ever do is wait

Speak now
Let loose

Am I always wrong?

-Survival Mode-

Dear God
That sound you hear is my teeth gnashing
I can hear it too inside my head
You've cut all my means of survival
You've nothing left to take but my life
I've fought to survive this far
Tasting every last crumb I have left
But now I have nothing
What else do you want?

Cracked- by: unknown forgotten

As I watch my cigarette burn out on the carpet
Its smoke scents the room of burnt hair and tobacco
Hand hanging limp, fingers still believing it's there
And I can't move my legs

As I sit perfectly still I can only will my eyes around the room slowly
The door is still moving in micrometers back shut after it slammed the wall
My ear is focused on the minute creaking and squeek between its hinges
At this point the smoke has finally made it to my nose

A tangle of distraught spins it's web inside my slowing mind
In my right hand condensation drips slowly down the exterior of a whiskey glass
My elbow tingles on the armrest of this old chair

The door is almost half shut now
At this point the cigarette has finally burnt out
My drugged-like eyes roll to the carpet burn and butt left behind
The black hole left is bigger than expected

In it I hear what you had said
In it I see you walking away as you just did
In it's black smoldered ash I sit frozen not knowing what to do
At this point the door has stopped, cracked open
At this point my mind has stopped, cracked open
And I can't move my legs

It's all okay
As long as your by my side
Look into my eyes
But good things never last
Goodbye

I'm broken and dying
Such a sad time
Keeling over in the midst of everyone's joy
Vomiting up my lungs showing a happy face
Brain melting every moment my eyes are open
I can't shake the shivers and the cold
Such a sad time
When I'm broken and dying.

Things going wrong?- by: unknown forgotten

Things going wrong?
Why are you so calm?
What if I could think inside this brain of mine?
These eggs are not hatching, they're rotten.
This seems like it is not going to end well.
I think that it's cancer.
Things going wrong?
Why don't you love?
What if I could break the door down with my foot?
There's no reason for laughing.
Watch out there's glass there.
Last night I made you leave me alone.
Things going wrong?
Why aren't you happy?
What if I was bright as the sun?
Something is on your shirt.
This is not what I wanted at all.
I think I'm going to ignore it, and sleep it all away.
That will solve it.

Don't you think it's time to stop time?

There is no one else around.

Tonight I am damned to my soul
Abondonded beyond belief
I have been betrayed by somebody I know well
Though I know not whom
I if I ever find out
Their punishment shall not be easy

I don't know who to trust

Third Times A Charm- by: unknown forgotten

I saw you in the parking lot
You were beautiful
I didn't know your name
But we had met twice before
I walked up casually and introduced myself
And I thought that I should let you know
That I don't love anyone anymore

I think we'd get along alright
Once we knew each others names
Went on a few dates and had a few drinks
Everything about you is enthralling
I wish I could give you a kiss
I don't love anyone anymore

Neo-Pilgramage and The Redemption of Mankind- by: unknown forgotten


Fuck you
I hate you
Die
Bastard ass motherfucker
Eat shit
Cunt
Son of a bitch


Are thing I used to say to people like you
But I'm not like that anymore
Now that I'm a Neo-Pilgrim!
I am as prude as they come
Colonizing in urban cities
And bringing our blandness to you
It's the best thing that's ever happened to me
And for you too!


Cut of all your hair little girls!
You will no longer be the little whores that you are
But only if you join us
Chop chop with the penis son!
God doesn't want you desecrating your holy hands
Tattoo this new holy pilgrim scripture
Right on your whipped and lashed asses
It speaks of the Holy Soap
That is mankinds only redemption
It reads:

"Eat the Holy Soap, ya dig?
Chew it up real nice like.
Yeah.
Try not to vomit now,
Choke it down.
Yeah.
Now just wait it out,
And your asshole will blow Holy Soap Bubbles,
For which others shall bathe in."

I urge everyone
All you evil fat producing sacks of shit
Come, join us, eat the Holy Soap
And be cleansed from within

And from the soapy shit sauce of your Neo-Pilgrim sisters and brothers
Don't stay the same living everyday with all those pricks and bitches

Join us in our mission to become the new forefathers of our new country to be
Where jobs and money have no reason to exist
Doesn't it sound great?! Yeah!

Everyday at 1:30pm we devoutly read from our holy book
"The Totally Holy Pilgrimified Words of Stevie 0."
Stevie O. is our new master
His holy book says he is god
And that he will lead We, the Neo-Pilgrims to heaven and beyond
First stop is located in the center of the Earth
And the only way through is by passing through the molten lava rock
Of 3 specific volcanoes, the first 3 Stevie O created
At the beginning of time and the Earth's birth
The next we can not know of
Until we proceed to the afterlife's first home

Come sisters and brothers
You have lost your ways!
Eat the Holy Soap god damnit!
We'll get it inside you somehow!
Be it through your mouth,
or the other end!!

That Evil Man is Your Lover?- by: unknown forgotten

"I almost drove this car into a god damned building
I was about to destroy us all
But I woke up and turned the wheel

You should have seen your ugly face
All crunched up and in shock
From the near death experience we just had in the car

You screamed like an old lady
You're a big baby
We're not dead are we?

God damnit, I already told you
It must have been all that beer I drank
So shut up darling

Get in the car I'm leaving now
You can come with me
Or you can stay here if you'd like ."

Suck it up old dog
The sand and the seaweed is wrapped around toes
Coral reef tearing up flesh
The mountain hills covered in snow
Frostbite forcing skin cells to freeze and burst
Grassy fields that breach the horizon
With occasional patches of stinging nettles
Run faster and you'll soon make it home

Hibernation

I've gone into hiding again.

Bellisimo- by: unknown forgotten

Soon I'll step onto your territory
Walk all over your lawn
Knock on your door
And come inside

I'll start by pacing the sidewalk across the street
Then stand outside your house
But eventually I'll walk onto your property
And you'll make me dinner inside

I'll sleep in your bed
You'll hold me tight
I'll play your piano late at night
I'll be there the next morning with comforting eyes

Sooner still I'll chase myself off with my own gaurd dogs

I can write the music
But I can never sing the words
I make the best incomplete songs

Some Song- by: unknown forgotten

That blood pouring out of my arm is minor
I'm sure the infection will heal it all
The blow itself was worse then the after affect
Your eyes hurt me even worse

Yet I don't know you
I think I met you once
It's not even that I love you
It's more that I want to know you more

That bruise on my knee will only swell up
It will be painful for days
But between then and now and who knows when
I'll probably not see you soon again

I guess I could make a move
I suppose I could take that chance
But I'm always terrible at that
I'd rather revel in the aftermath

This Time This Is It- by: unknown forgotten

It seems more and more I stop
And need a moment to collect my thoughts

With the view of the broken glass
And the ciiy that had just crumbled
The rats came crawling
Dying on their own
The defeated defeated
By a disease even they could not withstand

Quaking, the ground rolled like the pacific
One a beautiful summers day
The few of us stood there silently
There was nothing to say

But she said nonetheless:
"The day before today,
My mother was dying.
She had cancer in her brain.
The doctor said she had two months to live.
But she is already gone today."

And at that moment
The sun dropped beneath the rubble
The cloud of ash that coarsed the sky had not yet settled
And another spoke:
"I was wasting my life.
I've lost absolutely nothing.
And it makes it feel even worse."


From a town we rarely visited
From the east, behind our backs
Rose flames miles high
That made love with the sky
It's twisting orange bursts
Caressed the blackening clouds


No one spoke again
Until the sun forced through the black sky
And the world was no longer green and brown
No longer full of beautiful man made synthetic colors
But a harsh dead gray
That our tears beaded upon after they had fallen

I've got stories to tell
I just don't know how to tell them anymore

This has never been successful
Like the boy with no stone to throw
When the wolf comes round 'bout midnight
And gets his arm bitten off at the elbow
Post it notes are piled
Each page a word or phrase
Hundreds and hundreds form a book
Each page never read
Each one containing the final piece
That makes all my stories whole

I'll Never Forget- by: unknown forgotten

It seems more and more
I need to stop
And recollect my thoughts
Think about what just happened
Think about what I've already lost
Weigh all the options
Dig deep into my soul
Find out what I really believe
Realize the times I've been a fool
Rediscover lost loves
Rediscover loves lost

Wander away for a moment
With the option of never coming back.

He Was- by: unknown forgotten

Several inches beneath the mud
laid a vile of poison strong enough to kill god
It was grasped in the cold bony dead hand
Of an alchemist who discovered the meaning of life
His son was a bookkeeper at a library downtown
He read all the greatest stories there ever was
But he did not believe what his father was doing was right
So he struck him down cold blooded in the middle of the night
With a golf club he cracked open his old man's skull
Drawing more blood than he knew how to clean up
You think that with all the murder mysteries he had viewed
He would have known how to commit a murder proper and true
He took his fathers notes and hid them in a trunk
Where he buried it in an unknown spot
Some say near where his beloved passed mother does lay
But for his father he dug a hole 10 feet deep by 4 across
And dropped the old dead man standing straight up
The vile of poison still clenched in his fist
His stiff arm extended straight into the air
He lay for 30 dark years untouched
His son the bookkeeper never spoke a word more and never told a soul
He died a gruesome death in a train wreck when he was 64 years old
No tree ever grew where the deceased alchemist rested
Though the dirt turned a disturbing black and omitted a deathly grotesque stench
And this is where I found the carcass of a perfect white messenger dove
Each feather still intact and white as heaven
In it's talons gripped a tiny glass vile
And beneath it's body protruded the empty dead hand of the alchemists that was.

Blind- by: unknown forgotten

Did you ever consider for a moment
That when he carves your eyes out with his fingernails
That nothing from that point on will ever bring back your sight?
You will be blinded for the rest of your life
Scarred and separated from the rest of the world in a shroud of eternal darkness
His fingers will dig deeply into your flesh and sockets
Tearing and ripping into your throbbing skull
The pain will be unbearable and you will scream wildly
I'm only warning you
But I know you'll let him blind you nonetheless

Reasons- by: unknown forgotten

I'm riding the infernal waves of a tornado
It's shredding my clothes and ripping my flesh

I'm lying naked upon my back
You appear slowly from out of sight
The words exchanged are few
We lie with no incentive to move

I'm broken in a smashed up car wreck
Bleeding out my neck from where it shouldn't
I'm weezing and gasping but no one can make out your name
I've nothing else to say

I'm speaking slowly
Avoinding your pretty eyes
I can tell you're next to me
But I refuse to look

Go, NOW! - by: unknown forgotten

Go save the day
Go face the day and win the game
Go smother your doubts in their sleep
Go murder your debts when they blink
Go realize the shit you're in is knee deep
Go conquer the world with your amazing feats
Go play the game and save the day
Go dream your dreams in your sleep

I need to clear some things up
Regarding every almost every aspect of my life
Other wise the muck will keep getting thicker

I'm going to do something someday.

blue mailboxes- by: unknown forgotten

The cherry fell from my cigarette to the ground
I picked it up to eat it and pulled off it's stem
Like the kind that's in your head attached to your brain
The ones from the monkeys that the Chinese eat
During celebrations where there are dragons in the street
By the blue mailboxes and newspaper vending machines
Full of paper and news stories
About car crashes and murders
The same ones that are all over TV
The one in our house is old and small
We don't have cable, just for the internet
Where there is everything anyone ever wanted to know

By the blue mailboxes and newspaper vending machines
Full of coins but mostly quarters
One of the new ones from Texas
The wind was so strong I saw semi-truck blow over there
There was no writing on it's side
Like billboards that are blank and unused
In the middle of nowhere like Montana
I drove all night through there
A bird flew in front of the van
There was a lot of roadkill on the road


By the blue mailboxes and newspaper vending machines
They used to have machines that sold cigarettes
You can smoke them in bars but you can't smoke cigars
Cubans are the best
I hear they're good at boxing too
I've never been in a fight
Violence in movies is alright with me though
No good ones have come out lately
Just commercials for teen-chick movies
All advertising and propaganda for young girls
The mall is full of it
It's just down the street from my house
I hear the foodcourt has almost every type of food
But not monkey brains like the Chinese eat
During celebrations where there are dragons in the street
By the blue mailboxes and newspaper vending machines

Which reminds me of something else

Heading South- by: unknown forgotten

Water logged
Such a sad song
with the hiccups
And the mohawk all crusted

I'm rushing forwards to anything
Hoping only to be revived
Soaking up the blood I lost
Covering the vomit I spilt

Iron , copper and aluminum
The rust that lays against old ships
Creaking wildly against their unuse and abuse
Crushing barnacles in between and beneath

The wheels screeched for a moment
Sparks flared into the air
And slowly yet slowly
The train moved out of my way

Premonition- by: unknown forgotten

She walked through the blue fields
The sun set easily
The moon hung low
Though the sky was still blue
The earth rumbled mildly
The trees began to quake
The birds all fluttered wildy
As the world imploded

These cold days create the perception of loneliness.

Who would believe it
But I'm big on romance
A soft delicate touch
The glimmer of an eye
The warmth of two as one
A delicate kiss
All these I miss
The world surrounds me with romance
But none of it I possess

Never drink last nights water.
It is tainted with the sorrows of yesterday.
It is the poison of the past.
It yields the blood off your unholy lips,
which carry the destruction of life.

Everything is decent
And yet I crumble

I've got that feeling
Like I forgot something somewhere
Something important
Something from my soul

I was bitten
It was either the devil
Or a lovebug

Now listen carfully darling
There is a reason I have come
And it is for nothing else but you
You're the reason I'm standing here
Holding you so close so dear
No in between shall divide
No other can compare
There is one reason I am here
And it is for nothing else but you

Lifecycle- by: unknown forgotten

I like to hit walls
Every now and then
Wouldn't say I like it
But I hit them none the less

I like to use up all my reserve
And have no one to fall back to
Wouldn't say I like it
But it happens none the less

I like to breakdown
Late at night and all alone
And realize though I can fix this
I don't have the means to

I like to dream about the future
Of what I can do next to improve
But I never get there
I've a hard enough time keeping going as it is

The sun will still rise again
Whether you're ready or not

Whilst I slumber I am still OKay- by: unknown forgotten

Whilst I slumber I am still OKay
These days ain't so bad as they seem to be
The world turns and shit happens
But yet I slumber well

My mind is clear
My body healthy and strong
My dreams are straight and true
As far as I can tell everything is well

Can you hear me sleeping?
It's like a hurricane or a storm
Though I lay motionless and peaceful
It is a force to be reckoned with

The stereo is on and playing love songs
My heart is big and beats audibly loud
And I dream of all you out there
And it feels as if I never slept a wink

This reality is a dream
And my dreams are reality exposed
I can still only hope
I can only hope

I have a hard time parting with my possesions
Useful or not, it doesn't matter

We're all preaching lies
And we don't even know

We're all low life scum
When we have no idea what we're doing

We're all out of control
With no basis to set our standards

So we buy motorbikes
And ride through the night

To our hearts content we roll
As fast as we can we weave through the streets

Carving away with every turn,
Some part of our life we wish to forget

It is my will that I burn two stroke
And leave a cloud of blue smoke

I am free.
Am I?
I am free?
Am I?
Am I free?
I am.

Fat Fuck- by: unknown forgotten

He was a big man
A fat man
Joy oozed from his huge heart
Light reflected off his greasy bald head

Yellow teeth hung from his rotting gums
Spittle dripped from his stubbly double chin
Chaw packed tightly in under his cracked lip
Spitting on the floor every minute

Hands filthy as a public toilet
Hair slicked with sweat and oil
The air wavered with a stench of a sour rotten odor
The kind that lingers when guys like this don't shower for days

Fat and blubber hung from beneath his t-shirt
It itself was 2 sizes too small, sweaty, and torn off at the arms
And torn weathered boots, missing laces and smelled like shit
Or was that his ass, who knows what was going on down there

This fat mother fucker
A giant birdshit on the world
The awful thing that makes you gag reflex tighten up
That was this rancid man
One fat fuck just taking up space

Trial, Error, and Success- by: unknown forgotten

Sure you could make me cry if you tried hard enough
You could also make me rupture in rage
But why would you try harder
When you have that affect anyway

You could bring me down to my knees
Thrash me until I writhe in pain
Leave me out in the cold so that I freeze
But believe, being just who you are is enough

That blade was too sharp, it didn't hurt
Those pills weren't enough, I'm still awake
You tied that knot to loose to hold my wieght
It wouldn't be so bad if you only finished the job
Instead of maiming me and trying again
I'm beaten, there's no need for more

One Way Dead End- by: unknown forgotten

There is no easy way to die, darling
There is no easy way to let life die

We can sit here all day together and ponder
But it's no matter
We both know there's no easy way to go

Sum=2- by: unknown forgotten

She is the ghost +1
She is the ghost +1
Walking around somewhere semi-lonesome downtown
Where she goes there is always +1
I remember the time when there was none
Now she is the ghost +1
She is never alone +1
Unlike the good old days where it was just fun
Now she is bound to herself +1

Reorganized- by: unknown forgotten

A corner in the room has moved
I met new foreign friends
Whom I've always known
And heard from a ghost
Who has a hold on my life
It told me who I was
Spoke of that past and current world
I saw the city lights and they were still the same
I watched the orange moon burn the sky
Just like it always does
But the walls have moved in my room
And these are good new friends
I'll let you know more of the ghost
When it tells me of my future
And what role it will play

A Something Forever- by: unknown forgotten

Sans pen and paper
What else do I have forever to keep?
Words and type is where I'm at
I may love you, hold you
But in time I'll leave you
Or you'll leave me
Though it may be through death
But words will never cease
Sans love and fulfilling life
Script will have to suffice

Keys- by: unknown forgotten

This is an unnofficial union
Which holds strong to nothing
With electric heartbeats
And computerized drum beats
She didn't know the difference
Anyone can make a record
Anyone can play the harp
-if they try hard enough

And the chosen will pull halo's out from their pockets
Grow wings from their asses and invisibly stalk us
What I thought was a guitar was synthetic
What they used to say was prophetic
10 fingers can play 10 keys
No more no less consecutively
And that's why my fingers bleed
Not from tension, not from speed
But from passion and 66 and 88 keys.

The second hand can't change
But the first hand destroy's my dreams

To see from two eyes shatters hopes
But from my third eye I've always known

I hardly took a step
Yet alone get my foot in the door

Since Then- by: unknown forgotten

Of course I'm melting inside
Life sustaining organs turned to mush
Pumping infection and puss
My bones are brittle and soft
My rotten skin is peeling off
And I'm rude and coarse
My mind is moslty clear though I'm falling apart
But that's not why you hate me

Of course you're healthy and strong
Well versed with a stable mind
your hair is long and your sight is keen
You could race any race and always get first
Your kind as Jesus and handsome too
But that's not why I hate you

Tearing- by: unknown forgotten

Tearing torture
Like rusted sunken ship walls
A pile of nails and razors
To go to sleep on

These shoes ain't made for walking on fire
These hands ain't made for suicide

There's something I don't know
Something in between
Something nobody's ever told me
But god damn it's tearing me bits

I am not in high demand around these parts.

Pen and paper
Meditation and relaxation
Lies and truth
Between the two there is few

Whisky Girl- by: unknown forgotten

I need a girl
With a godly heart
And the devil's kick
With a heavenly smile
And develish looks
I need a girl who's the opposite of me
One that will stick around
Maybe teach me a few things
Like how to give a damn
I need a girl who will fuck like a hooker
And love like a wife
A girl who will take the bottle from my hand
And show me truth
Then take a swig
And hold me tight

Boom City- by: unknown forgotten

I got lost in your eyes
They drew me in like quicksand
I saw no color only life and love
And all the little things that I miss

Like fireworks in the sky
And you seemed that far away
I got lost in your eyes
But you were somewhere else

The Story- by: unknown forgotten

Try and stop me now
I've reached a point
where I no longer care about you
Though it's not true
But time after night
Leaves me wondering, dreaming
If it will ever be true
---
So here I am
An isolate man
Wrtiting my own book
On how things should be done
I'm tearing through life
Creating it the only way I know
I'm sitting here writing my story without you
But if you ever feel so inclined
I've left blanks to insert your name here and there
And if you ever feel so inclined
I would rewrite the whole story about you

Rightfully so.

(Excerpt from) Summer In St. Claire- by: Brandtson

...

Lying in bed wishing I was somewhere else instead
I've got to figure this one out
Just between you and me and God
Everybody needs some time to heal
Everybody needs like everybody bleeds
Can't we sit and talk about all that we've loved and lost and what it's cost
And I'll put on a show for you
Pretending not to hurt like nothings ever wrong
And you'll see right through me
And I'll be here for you
And you'll be there for me
And I'll feign strong
And you'll see right through me

.

-Survival Mode-

There Is A Reason I Stick Around- by: unknown forgotten

When you don't feel fine
I don't feel fine

When you feel great
I feel great

When I don't feel fine
You feel great

When I feel great
You're not around

We're All Susceptible to Rabies and Mange- by: unknown forgotten

Like the dog that finally bit the tire off that luxury sedan
Like the dog that licked that beer off the floor
And went to town on all the cats in town
Like the dog that saved a boy from drowning
Like the dog that fought cougars and beers
Like the dog that howls to the moon
Like the dog that loves his owner
But is still wild at heart.

Like the dog that you are
You filthy son of a bitch
Your life is a wreck
You've got no friends no home
You don't even have a bone
Your unkempt, unclean
You live out on the streets
Striving to survive
Eating whatever you can find
Your pathetic and disturbing
Don't come near me.

Like the dog that you are,
Man's best friend.

Let's get thrashed

I think I'm going crazy
If you're going crazy too
Give me a holler
And we'll go crazy as one

Watch Me Go- by: unknown forgotten

Crawling out your mind is a hard thing to do
But going out of you mind is jsut dangerous
I seem to do it all the time
And it's just not right

Where am I?
Where did I go?
What day is it?
Who do I know?

The people I love don't know it
The people I hate I hide it from
I'm standing in the very middle
No emotion displayed
Where is my heart?

Imperfect balance.

Strange feelings come over me
When it's late and I'm alone
I'm sure it's nothing abnormal
But I feel lonely and cold.

And now I'm obsolete
No on really needs me.

Babylon was on fire
but at the last moment
I was pulled out from there

So that's how they do it
That's what I said
Yeah
HA

Careful now,
Those are venomous weeds.

And what happens to a man who never eats?!

Lies, lies.
There's something beneath.

Oh ouch.
The anger
The struggle to keep secret
The angst given with love found in the dark

Well that was no fall
But a leg lost in a disaster
An icicle from the overhang
Slicing!
Sliced me in half.
Limp leg.

Noxious We- by: unknown forgotten

This is the change
And the whistles of the cancerous childen
The spiders crawl on their faces
They can do nothing about it

Oh the thunderstorms drench our cold lives
With warm winds and night
Upsetting the nature of our depressing lives
Happiness, I say shall last no more

Tastless food and smoked cigars
A fresh of breath air
And all the citizens in their homes
Drowning from lack of experience and reality known

Well he cut my fingers off
And she bit my tongue
Now I'm burning up, I'm on fire
And hell's flames are scorching my toes

Beneath this paper thin skin
Is a soul longing for something more
Touch love sex emotion whole
Crazy deams that eat away the brain

She tasted something she did not like
Puked it up upon the tile floor
Soaked into the pourous grout
Stayed there forever and ever more

I'll Pry and Split Wood- by: unknown forgotten

Serious contemplation
I have a great big heart
And lots of love to give

And I'm beginning to love you
Time is making me stong
Drawing me closer
Time and time again

I thought I was wrong
I thought I could be right
I noticed you were beautiful
I took you up in my arms

I thought I was right
I found out you were right for me
Where had I been all this time
You were always just up ahead

And in light of it all
Time is turning now for the better
And I'm beginning to love you
I might be jealeous that you're not here right now

So when I think about it
I know just what to do
It seems we'll be nailed
Nailed
Nailed together for the rest of eternity

Nailed- by: unknown forgotten

Serious contemplation
I have a great memory
And good hearing

And I'm beginning to hate you
Time is sucking me dry
Working my mind over
Time and time again

I thought I was wrong
I thought I could be right
I noticed I was failing
You took up my slack

I though I was right
I found out I was wrong
Were I was losing ground
You were pulling ahead

And in light of it all
Time is turning now
And I'm beginning to hate you
I might be envious of what you have going on

So when I think about it
I'm not sure what to do
It seems you've got it nailed
Nailed, nailed
Where I left it not too long ago

I'm getting weaker
I'm wearing thin
I hate how obvious I have been

I lost myself in your eyes.

Your thought follows me like the echo in a cellphone
Except I know more so of what I say and how I do
And it makes me uneasy in front of you

At some point something's bound to happen.

I have two clocks on me.

Dinner is for people who have someone to eat it with.
Lunch is only necessary.
Though breakfast can be a lonely feast.

Tired of Waiting-

I always set my hopes too high too soon.
So I look to drastic measures.

This is our life.

Remember all those spiders I killed?
How I tortured them,
How I fed them to each other?
Well mankind is lashing back!
In cannibalism and venomous war.
They're biting me.

I can be evil too.

The Red Specter- by: unknown forgotten

I've been living beside the ghost
I've been doing whatever she told me
She pulls my hair as I sleep
And haunts my thoughts as I dream

She befriends and inhabits my closest friends
She manifests herself from an earshot
She's the one across the room talking to my mother
I taste, I feel the lack of the specter standing near to me

This is the broken heart
A tear that can not be fixed
A witness to what damage a ghost can do
Beware the ghost and the whispers in your ear



Drink your own blood
As she shares the infection
And sucks your heart dry

Somewhere along the line
Balancing on the trip wire
Tip-toeing acroos the tight wire
Crossing the finish line
Sneaking in the backdoor
Climbing up the rope ladder
Wearing all black running across the lawn
Gun in hand knife in pocket
Fist-packed kickass action

Thoughts at 30 Minutes Late- by: unknown forgotten

Sisters and brothers
I am drowning in my own worries
I am puking up stories
That horrify the young unintelligent

Brothers and sisters
I am failing at life
I took the wrong pill from the doctor
I inhaled the wrong executioners gas
The needle was not full of poison
The smoke was not to inhale
The powder was not an amphetamine
I am not cracked out of my own mind

The taste was not the fury
The lust was not love
The thought was not planned out
I can no longer recollect

Lovers and sinners
We have lost our way
Somewhere along the inland and ocean
We tossed our souls to the natives
Into a photograph
Onto the TV
The back side a of a magazine

Sisters and brothers
We have we lost our way
I love thee so dearly
Lie next to me
We will be okay
Lie next to me
We can make it okay

A Super Villian's Realization- by: unknown forgotten

Today
I am invincible
I feel stronger than ever before
I will crush your skull with one hand
I will make powder out of your bones

Today I am all powerful
I will take over the world
Because I am stronger
Because I am smarter
Than everyone else ever before
Today I am invincible
And today is the day I make my name known

Daylight Savings (Pacific Mountain Central Eastern Time) by: unknown forgotten

Fill me in
I've been gone for so long
Or so it seems
Out of the ordinary
I've left something behind somewhere in Montana

I still don't feel like I'm back
It still doesn't feel like I'm home
Just finished unpacking
My mind needs sleep
My body is sick
And I feel like it's about time to travel again


Fill me in
Bring me back home
I can't remember your faces
I can only expect the same from you
But tell me you remember
Let me know you know my name

what to do- by: Unknown Forgotten

Damned if I do
Damned if I don't
Damned if I do
Damned if I don't

Damned if I do
Damned if I doesn't

Damned if I does
Damned if I dont's

Damned if I does
Damned if I doesn't

Irish Indian- by: unknown forgotten

This is the story of a half irish, half indian man-

Once upon a time there was an Irish Indian,
He drank himself to death.

Hope- by: unknown forgotten

I'm cold
I'm tired
And I just want to go to bed
With you
But you're not here

These are strange times
In our strange lives

It feels good to know I am so vulnerable if one chose to test it...

I'm not sure I understand the meaning of this all.

Recall- by: unknown forgotten

Recall old glory
Money power and fame
Recall past lives
Money power and fame
Recall jealous thoughts
Money power and fame

rest assured my one true love

Named- by: unknown forgotten

It's good to know
A sort of reassurance
That I'd still rather be me than you

I can watch but not endure
And I live myself and persevere
I'm just so glad
That I'm not you

Bad- by: unknown forgotten

That's good.

ouch
disregard
hahaha
the mind path
and now
surprise
this is what you get to see
what you expect
and I thrive

WHAT !!??

cut you up and spit you out